Going to College / University Later

What to do what to do?

A decent job for my age in an interesting industry, but the thought of being stuck in this industry in 10 years time is daunting. Then there are life circumstances. When it decides to throw a pile of shit your way that is not compatible with the stress and time needed for your current job. But then you look at the positive and think ‘why not try a degree?’

I think my mind is made up on this decision. I have considered the debt I will be entering, the study involved and the poor student lifestyle. I also considered the fact that I am 24 and by the time I graduate I will be 27. Then I considered the fact that if I decide not to do this now… My age is increasing alright!

The thought of getting to 35 and wanting a career change frightens me. I am not getting any younger. Not that there is anything wrong with studying passed the age of thirty, but I want other things in my 30s. Stability, a house, a partner and a family of my own. I am not interested in those things right this minute so I need to make the most of this time and get a solid foundation.

I in no means think someone needs a degree to go places. I could definitely move up in my industry without it, but I like options and I want more options for myself. If I go back to what I am doing now that’s fine. Knowing that I have a degree under my belt and can add a postgraduate certificate or diploma later on to completely change my career path is enticing. I love learning and I want this for myself. Timing wise this makes sense. Current situations are definitely pushing me towards the idea of doing this now and that is exciting. I am excited by this possibility.

Also slightly nervous, but that comes with any change or major decision. Deciding to add to your debt rather than build your savings could have an enormous impact on your future. Especially at the age of 24.

Watch this space… The decision will be made by mid January 2018. New year, new me OR new year, current me crumbling due to stress and life.

Has the decision been made?

If anyone out there is listening and has any going back to school or ‘mature student’ (cringe) tips, leave a comment, some advice and courage… Please!

If Only You Knew…

Sitting here at my desk with my work laptop, two screens and a phone. My own desk. Is this a thing my younger self dreamed of? No… More likely acting in a blockbuster movie by the age of 16. Oh, how dreams die young.

Let me explain the fact that I thought my current job somehow fit into a dream my younger self may have had. Similar to the feeling I had the first time I stepped into IKEA (as an adult). That younger self dream being ‘it’s such fun imagining these things being in my future grown up world’. Main difference between IKEA and my job is that I still have those dream thoughts in adult Disneyland (IKEA).

Side note: This Thanksgiving I am thankful it is already Thursday afternoon – this thought comes to you from one of the first countries to experience the 23 November, but also not celebrate it. I am hoping little ole New Zealand gets some cyber Monday benefits.

Back to my point… FYI there may not be one.

Dreams and ideas are a funny thing. Little me would have loved the opportunity I have now, but sometimes dreams let you down. Expectations verse realities. Nowadays I find myself dreaming of consistent air conditioning in the office and appreciation from customers. Where have all the big dreams gone? I am finally at a stage in my life where I have the ability to go for my dream, but it is as if it has been drowned out by reality.

Let’s go back to the days of wanting to be something without worrying about bills, the housing market, ageing and uncertainty. Just go for it. Have a dream and try your damned hardest to get there. It may not end up being what you expected or the right choice, but at least you gave your dream your best shot.

I really should take my own advise. Instead I am reaching the end of my lunch break and heading back to my desk. Somewhat bitter about this post.

Thanks for reading

Dreamer out

Working Full Time and Doing YouTube

Gone are my days of working full time and maintaining a two day a week upload schedule. I do not have a clue how I handled that for as long (or perhaps little) as I did. My current job is definitely more stressful and time consuming than the one I had when said YouTube channel was regularly utilised while living in the UK. Moving back home, you would think one would have more time on their hands. One does not. In fact one has a new found respect for the energy I once had.

I enjoy my job as much as the next person. The next person being mildly satisfied with their career. It is more intense and boy do I miss uploading. I want to start making videos twice a week again, but there is no way I can maintain that. I do not believe once weekly is even a plausible option.

I miss video me. YouTube is hard work, even just for fun. I turned on monetisation and then off and then on and then off and I’m not too sure where we’re currently at with that pattern. In the smallest hope that my little time and energy that I have left with work is somehow worth it. A stupid thought, as YouTube is 100% worth it for my own sanity.

I envy those who can do this full time, but I also admire them. It’s hard work. A lot harder than anyone thinks. The ideas are sometimes taxing, but the part I love the most. Whether you have to search for a video idea or they just come natuarally, it’s a creative task. Next comes the scripting (you end up needing some form of a script), the filming,the editing, the uploading and sharing. It all takes time and energy and it is for the most part all on you.

I don’t really know what the point of this was… Maybe a note to realise people who make it on YouTube and even smaller channels DO work hard and they DO deserve what they have. Along with some luck, but try not to ignore their hard work.

Wannabe YouTuber Out Xx

Turning 24 – Life Lesson: How To Become Confident!

Rather than posting the stereotypical ’23 things I learned whilst being 23′, I decided to take the path less traveled and select one topic. This year I have come to realize exactly what makes me a now confident human being. Do not be fooled, this has far from always been the case. I am afraid my main tip is based on unexpected and rather unfortunate events that I have had to deal with over the past 2 years. However, prior to that my confidence began to grow as I started to put myself into challenging situations. The majority being travel related.

I am not saying the fix will be to head off backpacking alone on a challenging adventure… It could simply be going to a crowded event that you would usually not consider due to crowds. You also need to care less what people think. Caring is fabulous to some degree, but letting people’s opinions determine what you can and cannot do is a no go zone. Life is too short to care.

The rest of my opinions can be found and taken or not in the video below:

Be confident and you do you boo.

Thank you for reading and watching,

See you soon Xx

My Favorite 13 Netflix UK TV Series

This weeks Friday video is all about my favorite available on Netflix UK TV Series so far. Mostly watched in 2015, 2016 and 2017. These range from comedy to thriller and Netflix original to old school shows I should have watched years ago. I completely forgot to include another highlight show available in the UK which is none other than Orange Is The New Black – some blog exclusive content for you there.

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The Accent Tag – Kiwi New Zealander – 13 Things

Here we go again… This time with the accent tag! My New Zealand / kiwi accent after speaking French for a month and living in England for 2.5 years. Not that I think these things have greatly affected my voice and way of speaking, but perhaps my answers for the second half of the tag. Have a we laugh at my accent and judge the words I use – a real laugh at my embarrassing answers to some of the questions and enjoy!

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Travel, Moving & YouTube Update | 13 Things

I’m back after a rather impromptu break from YouTube. A mix of travel and moving updates can be found in the video below. Basically an explanation of where I have been, a wee apology and thank you for the support. I love the conversations in the comments and making videos in general. Here to stay!

The upcoming month will be busy as explained below. Even the day I arrive home in New Zealand at 4am on my birthday. 3 years I’ve lived outside of my home country and I would be lying if I said I wasn’t nervous to see what will happen next. Forever questioning my decisions at the moment, but isn’t that just part of life?

Thank you for reading and watching!

See you soon